A Little Background About Sisyphus
In Greek mythology, Sisyphus was the first king of Ephyra (Corinth). Although he helped the city become a commercial hub, he was a sly and deceitful person. He violated the Greek concept of Xenia (the concept of hospitality shown to guests and travellers) by killing guests so he could show everyone that he was ruthless and somebody you did not mess with. These dishonorable actions really got the “big cheese of all the gods”, Zeus, pissed off at Sisyphus. Then Sisyphus “pushed Zeus over the edge” when not once, but twice Sisyphus cheated death.
Finally, Sisyphus died at a ripe, old age and Zeus said, OK Sisyphus old boy, now you’re gonna pay for all your bullshit. Zeus decreed that Sisyphus would be punished by making Sisyphus push a boulder uphill until he was able to push it over the top to the other side. However, as soon as Sisyphus would get to the top of the mountain, Zeus made it that the boulder would eternally jump and roll back down to the bottom of the mountain again, making the efforts of Sisyphus the ultimate act of futility.
Dealing With “The Sisyphus Syndrome”
Have you ever experienced the Sisyphus Syndrome? Trying and failing time and time again, just when you thought that you were going to finally have a breakthrough. You work and perservere and just as you approach the crest of your mountain, your “boulder” jumps and rolls back down to the bottom again. I will be the first to volunteer a “yes” to that question. Not a particularly good feeling when that happens. In fact, it’s downright shitty.
The good news that I can tell you however, is that unless you have Zeus pissed off at you, there is a difference between you and Sisyphus. The situation of Sisyphus was hopeless. Yours is not. If you still have breath in your body, you have hope. Sisyphus was dealing with a “stacked deck”. Zeus gave him a “jumping boulder” that was never going to allow itself to roll over the top of the mountain. Your boulder is not “enchanted by Zeus”. The next time that it rolls back down to the bottom, stop everything and take a short break to sit still and go within.
Scripture states that the Kingdom of God is within you. Be quiet. Just shut the fuck up. Then, listen to that divine Inner Voice within you. It is called Intuition. Many choose to switch it off. Hit the switch to “on” and as that sign used to say at railroad crossings “Stop. Look. Listen.” Look around you for potential helpers. Maybe it is a special tool of some sort or a person who will assist you or a different technique or the same technique with an adjustment of some type. If you strongly feel that your goal is really “meant to be”, that your goal is part of your true destiny, then persevere in your efforts. You have no other choice than to keep on pushing. Edison stated that he did not fail a thousand times before he hit upon the right filament for the light bulb. He said it was a successful process with a thousand steps to it.
Feel Your Success
Discipline yourself. Spend some time each day in the SATS (state akin to sleep, see 12/10/20 blog post) even if it is only a minute or two. That is still better than nothing. Feel what you would feel when, after all the heartbreak and disappointments, you finally succeed in getting that MF boulder over the top. Then hold on to that feeling — hold on to it as long as you possibly can, then totally let go and go to sleep (or if it is daytime, go on with your planned activities). You do not have to be Sisyphus if you choose that you do not want to be. Oh, and one final thing — Don’t piss off Zeus. He’s got a big ego and a nasty temper.